“Come to me all who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matt.11:28-30 ESV

Ladies, you might want to pass on this post. It will appall and disgust you. I suggest you read a psalm or something while I speak frankly to the men.

We say the p-word because we don’t even want to say pornography and we say the m-word because we don’t want to say masturbation.

Guys, lets face it, we are hopelessly addicted to our sin and we struggle to find a way out. And guys, don’t deceive yourself not only is the p-word sin but so is the m-word. You should know that but I get it, we get deceived so here are just 2 verses.

“I urge you therefore brothers, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service of worship.”  Rom.12:1 ESV

“Do you not know that your bodies are the parts of Christ? Shall I then take the parts of Christ and make them the parts of a harlot? God forbid! What? Do you not know that he who is joined to a harlot is one body with her? For the two, He says, shall become one flesh. But he who is joined to the Lord becomes one spirit with Him. Escape from sexual immorality. Every sin that a man commits is outside the body. But he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. What? Do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God, and that you are not your own? You were bought with a price, therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s.” 1Cor.6:15-20 ESV

That was a long quote, I try to be brief but I felt it necessary to show you that God expects us to keep ourselves sexually pure. And not just somewhat but truly pure. So firstly you should get that into your head and don’t let Satan deceive you and tell you its okay to m-word, its not okay.

What is m-word? You having sex with yourself. God forbids it.

So what are we going to do? First let me tell you that I am no longer addicted to the p and m-word. Christ has set me free and I was set free about 25 years ago, then I fell back into it, and now I am free again for the last 8 years or so. So when I say “we” it is because I identify with those who are still addicted even though I am not any longer.

I have run across on the internet an organization that is helping those addicted with this problem and I have not looked into it but hopefully it will do some good. I will probably watch the video and see what they have to say. But consider this post, what I learned and how Christ can play the vital role in delivering you.

This is what happened to me. Back 25 years ago I fell into a depression and I began to take stock of my life and decided to prioritize the things that were important. My wife and I were separated and I knew in my heart she was going to divorce me, even though I was always faithful to her. Our two kids were middle school and were doing just fine.

But as for me, I was thinking about God and Jesus and heaven. Yes I was a Christian at the time but the sins in my life didn’t square with my faith. I was burning in lust. I was in love with the m-word and the p-word. And what? Do we just ask God for forgiveness and continue on sinning? I didn’t think so. To be honest I was afraid in the end God would cast my sorry bacon into hell, if I didn’t truly repent of my sins and stop it. I really did think that.

Well okay then I am going to stop if that is what I needed to do. Whoa! Guess what? I am addicted and I found I couldn’t stop. Okay then, well the Jesus lives in me, He should be able to help me. So I trusted him whenever I felt tempted and things went along okay until one day driving home from a long hard day at work one summer day and there walking along the sidewalk is one hot looking babe. Remember its summer and the ladies, especially the hot ones shed a lot of their clothes.

Lust came up from the bottom of my soul, an overwhelming rush of lust. You know what I am talking about, it is a rush like a mighty river that can’t be stopped. So I prayed.

“Lord Jesus, right now I put my trust in you, I am overwhelmed with temptation but I am down on my face before you with my arms warped around your feet and I am not letting go of you, I will either be delivered by you or I will die right here with my arms warped around your feet.”

And guess what happened? He delivered me, He rescued me, He saved me from having to sin. He overwhelmed me that day with His presence and I began to weep uncontrollably. To this day, 25 years later I weep often in my private prayers in my room. I start every day prostate on the floor before my heavenly Father and almost every day His presence comes into me and causes me to weep. I know that’s a lot of weeping but I can’t help it, and shhhh don’t tell anyone, I haven’t told anyone but you, and because I speak so frankly about these things I am using a pen name for this site. The things I say here makes me afraid I would be crucified if those who know me, knew that it is me saying these things.

I gotta wrap this post up, I try to keep it at about 1000 words. So what is with the “take my yoke” verses at the beginning? It is because to get delivered now is going to take some doing, just like it was for me. Lets face it, you have got yourself into a pickle, It is going to be the hardest thing you have ever done to get out of it. But after that initial victory and some followup victories you will find that it gets easier. It is going to take some effort on your part, trusting in the Savior, but in time you will discover that his yoke is easy and his burden is light. I am so much in love with Him. Oh, did I mention, when you get in the trenches with Jesus and learn to win with Him at your side, you will fall in love with Him. That I promise.

May the Lord bless you and keep you, may he make his face shine on you and be gracious to you, may he lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace. amen.